Tuesday, January 27, 2009

soylent green is people...

I've been taking 20 mg Cymbalta the last few weeks, not sure if the new shiny green pills are helping with the joint pain or just making me too sleepy/ugh to notice a change... so until something more earth shattering comes along, I decided that this will be the last post about my general energy levels... seems to be that each update is followed by a crash or energy spurt and by now it's probably pretty obvious the kind of day I'm having by the amount of post being made to my blog.




besides I've got more goodies coming along which are far more interesting :)

Sunday, January 11, 2009

and the wheel goes a'round...

and a'round...
guess what? my brain/body kicked back into function mode today :P

A load of dishes are done, the recycle closet is organized, the moo-moo vest of doom is bound off and I cast on a new stash buster type hat (all in one day, I know... it cracks me up too) :



sorry for the dark photo, it's 48 stitches with 4x4 rib using softee chunkee yarn by bernat on giantic, well big needles (size 13 hiya bamboo 16" circ.)

The project above is still in development, my goal is to have all my stash going to designated projects by March, if it hasn't found a home/project by then, then I need to get it one fast (read: send to new home).

Life for me is running a pretty consistently inconsistent pattern (surprise!):
brain/body go boom, brain go okay, brain/body fumbles around, brain go boom, brain/body go okay... think I'm still missing something in the uptake?
as long as I end up on okay though, I will be okay.

I'm working on setting up more consistent organizational habits using my okay days to the fullest. Also been doing some hardcore thinking about the things I can still do consistently when it gets rough for me and what I can get rid of to limit energy/stress needed to maintain said things.

Frustration is still a huge hurdle for me, but at least I know it's there. That's a good thing right?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

self realization - the photo tour

Late last week I had an awesome amount of energy/determination, accomplished a crap-ton of work around the house, went grocery shopping, lugged lots of bags from the car, heck even the kitchen sink was empty (should have taken a photo, that doesn't happen often around here).



(empty boxes, and 3 bags to good will)



(this was a lonely UFO tube of a kidlet vest, now has been split, a v neck and upper back added)

Then of course, god laughed, after a lovely productivity high wham! *cartoon thunder cloud above head* The dishes are back to stacking up, I've been just plain achy, etc...



I'm frustrated but coping okay thanks to the long, drawn-out realization that this is just how things are going to function. Super Kat will now be rolling along at half speed, doing what I can and saying chuck it to the rest.



and when in doubt... chocolate no bake cookies fix everyyyyy thing :)